It is really hard to live each day when you feel out of alignment with God and His purpose for you life. While I love Women’s Ministry, I have been disconnected from it directly for some time. I equip other leaders, but I haven’t served in Women’s Ministry in a local church in several years. There were reasons for that disconnection, and there was healing that needed to happen. Knowing there were valid reasons didn’t help the ache of that void.
As I dip my toes cautiously back into the pool, my friend could see an expression or response that I didn’t even realize I was making. It was so evident, or she is so perceptive, that she asked me what the reaction was about. To really put towards how I was feeling seems impossible.
Joy and excitement about all of the things we discussed.
Relief that someone was willing to hear my heart, actually hear me.
Trepidation about getting too excited or my hopes up too much.
There is NO FEELING as good as when your are walking in obedience to His calling on your life, and living that purpose out. Even when it’s baby steps, toes dipping in the water, taking our time to get acquainted and build momentum. It’s like fresh breath in your lungs, a restart of your heart, and an energy charge to your mind.
I appreciated our openness with one another. Making sure we understood the similarities in our personalities and our differences. We were identifying potential obstacles before the presented themselves, so that we could understand each other better. Owning our strengths and even our weaknesses. We laid our hearts and desires, our truth (good and bad) out there to each other.
And we agreed to work with excellence in mind.
Thank you, Lord. I will not forsake this opportunity to serve once again. Whether little steps or by your leaps and bounds, I answered “here I am”.